It's morning again. I hear Garreth going faster on the stairs and that noise that flip-flops make when they touch foot skin. I want to sleep more because the room is dark. Or I want to sleep more because I like my safe bed. Is safe to sleep.

I go to the bathroom and wash my face and teeth. Because I don't have a mirror , can't see how I look like. My face is wet . Get back in the room and look for the towel. I don't turn on the light because Nuk is sleeping.
Nuk leaves at 8.30 , catches the matatu and goes in the slums. He is teaching there.

I get dressed while Museoka is coming with breakfast. I see him passing through carrying the same things : bread and tea. Last week Nuk asked for butter. Now we eat bread with butter. Almost everyday. Garreth is writing in his journal a lot. Every morning and every evening. I wish I had a diary to write in , but now it is too late. The reason I don't want to do this is because I get depressed ... or at least I think I would. We leave house and go on the same road every day. Pass over the bridge where people are mugged say hello to people working there and get in the matatu. The price is between 20 and 40 bob depending on the hour.

Everyday I read the messages written on cars , walls and buildings believing that there are signs of my theory that "everything happens for a reason". It is soo much happening. Who said that doing good things and helping others is easy ? I guess no one.

On Sunday my charm broke. It is not like something bad will happen , although the message on it :" Sa fie pace in lume" , means more that words to me. Sitting at the table I realise what I am doing...or what we are doing. I guess everyone in the team , is a Mercenary of Peace. We want to do good things , volunteering and community development but we still need money. And because of our good intentions we work for people like politicians or big companies who want their "sins" to be forgiven.

And in moment like this a friend of mine reminded me of something that Oprah said :" You didn't gradute from Harvard University just to get a good job." I guess the same with me and other Mercenaries of PEACE. We didn't invest our time and soul in volunttering work just to get a good job.